We lie beneath the stars at night
Our hands gripping each other tight
You keep my secrets hope to die
Promises, swear them to the sky
The bittersweet between my teeth
Trying to find the in-between
Fall back in love eventually.

Smeared black ink

Your face is ashen and I'm barely listening

To last demands

I'm staring at the asphalt wondering

What's buried underneath

Where I am

Where I am.

I am a visitor here

I am not permanent.

Used to steal your parents liquor and climb to the roof
Talk about our future like we had a clue 

Never planned that one day I'd be losing you.

I burn myself inside, I found nowhere else to hide
But the burning caught
Their eyes and they warm themselves
Around this dying fire

And I give myself away
And the takers always take
And I tried to walk away
But I lost my heart and I lost my faith. 

 

Not really sure how to feel about it
Something in the way you move
Makes me feel like I can't live without you
It takes me all the way
I want you to stay.

♡

I'll never forget you.

Für immer ein Teil von mir.

Wir haben uns lang nicht mehr gesehen
Und jeder geht seinen Weg allein.
Andere kommen und gehen mir durch den Kopf, doch es geht vorbei.
Dir geht es gut, rufst nicht mehr an,
Denn ich bin nicht mehr interessant.

...Doch ich will nur, dass du weißt:

Du bist und bleibst
Für immer ein Teil von mir.
Du bist und bleibst
Für immer ein Teil von mir.

I love it.

You're on a different road, I'm in the milky way
You want me down on earth, but I am up in space.
You're so damn hard to please, we gotta kill this switch
You're from the 70's, but I'm a 90's b*tch :)

Sie waren nicht zu schlagen,
sie waren einfach nicht zu toppen und teilten alles von Klamotten hin zu Windpocken.
Halfen sich gegenseitig bei Problemen und Schulaufgaben,
doch mit der 9ten Klasse trennten sich die Schullaufbahnen. 

Auf andre Leute folgten andre Interessen
und so wurden wahre Freunde ganz ganz langsam vergessen,
denn erst trennt einen der Schulweg später dann trenn' ein'n Welten.
Und aus immer wird häufig
und aus häufig wird selten...

und aus selten wird nie. 

 Menschen kommen und gehen,
Menschen sind wie Lieder.
Die einen bleiben Evergreens und die andren kommen nie wieder.

Diamonds.

Feel the warmth, we’ll never die.
We’re like diamonds in the sky.

You’re a shooting star I see
A vision of ecstasy.
When you hold me, I’m alive
We’re like diamonds in the sky.

So shine bright, tonight you and I.

Let me be lighter.

 ♡

There's a whole n'other conversation going on
In a parralell universe
Where nothig breaks and nothing hurts
There's a waltz playing frozen in time
Blades of grass on tiny bare feet
I look at you and you're looking at me.

Could you beam me up,
Give me a minute, I don't know what I'd say in it
Probably just stare, happy just to be there holding your face.

Beam me up,
Let me be lighter, tired of being a fighter

 I think, a minutes enough,
Just beam me up.

♡

♡

Forever young.

Some are like water, some are like the heat
Some are a melody and some are the beat
Sooner or later they all will be gone.
Why don't they stay young?
It's so hard to get old without a cause
I don't want to perish like a fading horse
Youth is like diamonds in the sun
And diamonds are forever.

So many adventures couldn't happen today
So many songs we forgot to play
So many dreams are swinging out of the blue
We let them come true. 

Forever young.
 I want to be ... forever young.

Und ich glaube ich bin jetzt endlich... befreit.

I will not make
The same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
'Cause my heart so much misery

I will not break
The way you did, you fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far...
 
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes

I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh, every day of my life...
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with!

I watched you die, I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young, you should have known
Better than to lean on me!

You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain 
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing!

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in!

Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty!
Because of you, I am afraid...

Because of you. 

 

 

Remember how we used to party up all night
Sneaking out and looking for a taste of real life
Drinking in the small town firelight

Sweet sixteen and we had arrived...

There she was, my little best friend 

High heels in her hands 

Swaying in the wind...

This is what makes us girls  

We all look for heaven

and we put love first.

Something that we'd die for 

It's our curse.  

Don't cry about it.

This is what makes us girls 

We don't stick together cause we put love first.

Don't cry about it.

Don't cry about it...
It's all gonna happen.

Du hattest heute einen wundervollen Schutzengel an deiner Seite.

Ich bin so unendlich dankbar.

Heute hatte ich furchtbar Angst um dich...

Ich liebe dich von ganzem Herzen.

Did you run through doors, 'til you hit the floor?
Did you read my eyes, and my aching thoughts?
Did you walk through walls, ‘til you had to crawl?
Oh my god your smile and my soundless calls

Did the light leave holes, where the ceiling rolled
Did you lay your head, as it all took hold
Did you spin so slow, I didn't see you go
Oh I wish I had, I wish I had known
 

And you're two feet away from my arms
But my head is weighed down by the spark
And it’s too much to take when you turn
When I still haven't seen what I've learned

It's three o'clock in the morning
And I wish you knew
How many hours I've wasted
Thinking of you

And my heart beats like a bullet.

Somewhere deep in the dark
A howling beast hears us talk.
I dare you to close your eyes
And see all the colors in disguise.
Running into the night,
The earth is shaking and I see a light.
The light is blinding my eyes
As the soft walls eat us alive.

I thought that things like this get better with time
But I still need you, why is that?
You're the only image in my mind
So I still see you... around

I miss you, like everyday
Wanna be with you, but you're away
Said I miss you, missing you insane
But if I got with you, could it feel the same?

Words don't ever seem to come out right
But I still mean them, why is that?
It hurts my pride to tell you how I feel
But I still need to, why is that?

Better to be hated

than 

loved

loved

loved

for what you're not.

If I could hold you close 

Like you were never gone 

If I could hear your voice 

You'd tell me to be strong

 
But sometimes, I just can't 

I just don't understand 

 Why you had to go, why you had to go  

Guess I'll never know

 
Ain't it funny how you think 

You're gonna be okay

  Till you remember things ain't never

  Gonna be the same again

In vain have I struggled. It will not do.

 My feelings will not be repressed. 

You must allow me to tell you

 how ardently I admire and love you.

Mr. Darcy

My dear old friend, take me for a spin
Two wolves in the dark, running in the wind
I'm letting go, but I've never felt better
Passing by all the monsters in my head

And I'm never ready
'Cause I know, I know, I know
That time won't let me
Show what I want to show

I move slow and steady
But I feel like a waterfall
Yeah, I move slow and steady
Past the ones that I used to know.

I miss you

You're gone gone gone away
I watched you disappear
All that's left is a ghost of you
Now we're torn torn torn apart, there's nothing we can do
Just let me go we'll meet again soon
Now wait wait wait for me
Please hang around
I'll see you when I fall asleep.  

You can leave if you want.   I'll remember you.   I remember everyone that leaves.

I live my life inside a dream
Only waking when I sleep
I would sell my sorry soul
If I could have it all.

The State Of Dreaming 

I lived a lot of different lives
Been different people many times
I lived my life in bitterness
And filled my heart with emptiness.

Got different people inside my head
I wonder which one that they like best
I'm done with trying to have it all
And ending up with not much at all.

Don't want to live in fear and loathing
I want to feel like I am floating
Instead of constantly exploding
In fear and loathing.

 

But I, I'll never forget you
I'll never forget you
You make things so easy
I'll never forget you

I'll never forget you
I'll never forget you
You made me so angry
I'll never forget you.

FIND THE TIME

The time to read,

to smell the flowers,

to paint your dreams,

to have coffee with a friend,

to learn a new craft,

to write a letter,

to bake a surprise cake,

to go somewhere special,

to REALLY be with the person you

love,

or even to do nothing for a 

while.

I got dark

only to shine.

I scraped my knees when I was praying
And found a demon in my safest haven, seems like
It's getting harder to believe in anything ...
You just get lost in all my selfish thoughts
I wanna know what it'd be like
To find perfection in my pride
To see nothing in the light?
Turn it off ...
In all my spite
I'll turn it off.
And the worst part is
Before it gets any better
We're heading for a cliff
And in the free fall I will realize
I'm better of when I hit the bottom.

Angels

play sounds

of sweet sorrow

on the strings

of my heart

And it takes all my strength
Not to dig you up, from the ground in which you lay
The biggest part of me
You were the greatest thing
And now you're just a memory... to let go of.

I am carrying my cold heart home.

Your face has followed me home
With unwanted grace I leave you lonely.
We were never made a perfect piece to fit
We will remain unfinished puzzles as we sit.

Tell me none of your longings 

I don't need them, or you 

Leave me none of your wisdom 

I don't need your lies, or your truths
 

I've been better when the sky was red 

and a face like yours couldn't make me scared 

I've been better better with the things I've said 

When I took the lead instead of being led 

Feed me none of your lines 

I won't fall for them, cause I'll lose 

Hold me to none of my words 

I don't mean them, when I'm with you

And the cars streak past with a life inside 

Why is my life in your eyes? 

And the windows glow with the hearts they've known 

Why is my heart never mine?

I feel happy, I feel sad, I feel like running through the walls.
I'm overjoyed, I'm undecided, I don't know who I am.

20 is like the worst idea that I've ever had!
It's too much pain, it's too much freedom, what should I do with this?
 
Don't need my eyes open, oh I,
I just wanna feel something.

Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away.
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay.

Buy the stars.

All my life I’ve been so lonely
All in the name of being holy
Still, you’d like to think you know me
You keep buyin’ stars
And you could buy up all of the stars,
But it wouldn’t change who you are
You’re still living life in the dark
It’s just who you are.

Lies.